Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Update - It's Been a Long Time!

Hey guys! I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a while but I have got great news at the same time! I have finally met a guy, which is something great to know in this new city, that I am not alone. His name is Greg, he is a logger in the brecon beacons, and part time as well he is a lawn sweeper so he can treat me quite often which is nice. Now, I know lawn sweepers aren't exactly regarded as the pinnacle of sexiness, but Greg is actually quite masculine and treats me very well. It's going great at the moment and I hope it will continue this way. I will keep you all updated as soon as I can.

Best Wishes,


Sunday, 1 August 2010

Furniture Shopping and Other Stuff

OK, so I visited a few shops today looking for furniture to put in my new place. I particularly liked IKEA and saw some nice tables, chairs and desks there. The food was awesome too! I bought some lovely swedish chocolates which I am eating right now. My favourite pieces of furniture were a rubber wood table, an oak table, a lovely desk though I forget what wood it was made of, some lovely chairs, an oak chair set, and of course some classic swedish wall lamps. In other places I saw a leather armchair or two which took my fancy, as well as a couple of couches, but I doubt I could afford those.

I still don't have any friends here. I think I might try meetup or citysocialising, just to get myself going here. I know there are plenty of guys here who want to get a girlfriend and I would be a great preference for them, but I don't just want a guy who is desperate for ANYONE. I don't want a guy who is super cool either, who is some kind of pickup artist / seduction expert, who has like 4 women on the go. Urgh! I don't necessarily believe in the perfect guy, I figure I will know my kind of guy when I see him. Sometimes in the past I had settled for men who were not my type, but there was nothing else around so I thought I may as well. I have never found a man, as a girl in her mid twenties, who really makes my heart skip a beat. I feel like I have missed out on living a bit, as I see a couple of my old friends from london happily engaged or even married. But then again, I have met their men and seen nothing special about them, so maybe I am really hard to please.

It's also quite difficult to get some peace at the moment. True, I come from a big city, London, but for some reason Cardiff is quite unsettling too. I would prefer to live on the outskirts if it weren't due to financial constraints. Still, it's obviously more quiet than London and I guess I have to get used to it. What I do like about this place is the castle, the park, the air is more fresh and the people are more friendly, less busy and generally far nicer than you could ever hope for in London. I don't really miss my home at all, given that it is really very crowded and dirty!

No luck in the job search either, I went to the job centre today but they have hardly anything. They don't have much for graduates, the security guards were nerve wracking and I had to wait for 45 minutes to see my advisor. They don't really care about whether you have actually looked for a job, so when people like me come in who are genuinely looking for work, we kind of slip through the net and get nothing. Big companies are barely hiring anyone on to their graduate schemes anymore and so it's getting all the more difficult as time goes by. I feel like the longer I am out of work, the longer it will go on like this. Sometimes I ask myself what I should do and there is no more unnerving answer than when you genuinely don't know, when you genuinely despair. I often think that I should go with one of those guys who just wants to get a girlfriend, provided he has money that is. A very awful thought but it's reality. I will update you soon, Amy.

Tuesday, 27 July 2010

First Night Out

Well, I went out on the town today, I have to say I am not that impressed with this city. I don't mean to be a spoil sport but it wasn't too exciting. Just the normal grey streets, drunk guys trying to hit on me and high heels, bright lights and cigarette blunts outside every pub and club.

Of course I'm looking for new friends in this city and potentially guys, but really, I don't think from seeing tonight's bunch of guys that I will have any luck. Most of them were just given dutch courage by the alcohol and didn't really have any interest in me besides my looks. I see myself naked every day when I shower, I wish these guys could just get over it and understand the real me, get to know the real me. I don't expect a prince charming or a superman, batman or any other kind of superhero, that's just unrealistic. I just want a guy who understands me like no one else. Tonight it was so far from the case that I am coming back a bit despondent.

Inside the bar it was very loud, far louder than in london, but the people seemed to like it. They seemed to like jumping about drunk with flashing lights in their faces. I could hardly talk to anyone and I got nauseous. It was not a very good start to my stay here. It was not a very good night. Even if I shouted no one could hear me so I started to think, what's the point?

Ok, so I am digressing. But guys are important, you know? Well, not the ones I met tonight, but you know what I mean! Another important thing is friends, but I didn't find any of those either. I haven't started a job yet so I don't have any work buddies. I felt like a right weirdo going out on my own, and strangely enough when guys wanted to talk to me with their lame pickup lines, I couldn't have felt any more alone if I tried. Darn, back to the topic of guys again! No, but seriously , I would love to just have one friend, a group of friends to be with and talk with and give me some support.

I'm going out to the local park in the city centre to just have a look round , and to look at the castles and the shops, not that I can buy anything at the moment. I just don't know what I'm doing, am struggling to find my feet at the moment but my mum says this will pass. I've not been here long at all, don't even have any furniture, no tables or chairs even, so it's way too soon to be jumping to conclusions. Hopefully it will get better soon. I will keep you posted, Amy.

I don't even have a table!

Btw, thinking of a table which I don't even have, this is what I just feel like writing before I go offline! I am eating like someone from Japan! I can't believe it. Scooping food up cross legged! I am regretting getting a flat which was unfurnished! Pout!

Life, Love and Furniture - An introduction

Hi, I'm Amy, So I've just moved cities from London to Cardiff, I've got a nice flat just near the city centre and I have bought a lot of stuff e.g. toiletries, food, you know, the basics, but now I am looking for the more complex things for example, a wireless broadband package instead of having to use my mobile broadband all the time because it's limited. Cardiff council have been really helpful in my claim for housing benefit as I look for a job. This housing benefit calculator was really helpful in working out exactly what I'm entitled to. Anyway, I gotta go cos I'm still unpacking. I will update you guys with a new update about my new life as soon as I can. First things first: I need some new furniture! There is only one small chair here! Argh!

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